News and Other Happenings

Though I am free and belong to no one, I have made myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some.  I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings. I Corinthians 9:19, 22-23.

So what's happening with me? A great deal. Well, I am going to Kenya. I will be gone this summer for a short-term missions trip. I have seen God's faithfulness in so many things- team members, finances, and prayer partners. Earlier, I wondered which trip to take- one to French-speaking Africa or this trip to Kenya.  God showed me His direction through His provision.

God wastes nothing. When I was getting my doctorate, I received a concentration in African Studies from Northwestern University, but I have never been to the continent. Go figure! Now, I can use all that study and preparation to a blessing to Africa. Even my trip to Brazil was an important stepping stone in this venture: I relearned how to work with team members,  how to come under authority to those in leadership, how to lean on the Holy Spirit's guidance, and even how to live on the field with severe anemia and digestive issues - eating beans and rice and eggs every day.

Our ministry team of 15-20 members will evangelize from house to house (hut to hut), participating in crusades at the new church plant in a small village, nine kilometers north of Kitale, in the western Kenyan highlands, and ministering at several schools and prisons.

I step out in faith, excited to see God’s provision in allowing me to be part of His work in Kenya, Africa . Please pray for peace to continue in Kenya , our safety as the team travels to Africa , and for our days in the field.  I see this summer trip to Africa as another step in God’s unfolding plan leading me to full-time ministrt.

"For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but that I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I  have been in the past. And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die." Philippians 2:20

Signing off (definitely, with more to come),
M.J.

"O' Prodigal Heart, O' Fickle Heart"

I would not know the way to the cross

If you had not brought me

dragging and kicking

Laying down one's life for someone

who doesn't seem to care

or notice is not news to You

While I was yet a sinner

You died for me

You ask me to surrender
my life
to take up my cross
and follow You

You know much of unrequited love

So much your concern
tho' so many dwelling
beneath Your benevolent gaze
know nothing of You
or either heap scorn
upon Your  beautiful visage


So, today I taste a little betrayal
a minuscule morsel of humiliation
Only a fractional measure
of the shame You
despised for the joy of the cross
when You saw me
On the other side of humiliation's
 gain

You saw me through the
blood-soaked tears

"Let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion and the author who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him,  he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God's throne. Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people, then you won't become weary and give up." Hebrews 12;2-3.

The Big Empty Chair

The big chair is comfy, but empty
waiting for me to sit there
beside You

You have being waiting

for me

for hours, days, weeks,

and even years

Waiting for me to see
how much You love me
Collecting all
my tears in Your bottle
Are they all not in
Your book?
(Psalm 56:8)

We cuddle together
in the comfy chair
I rest between
Your shoulders (Deut. 33:12)

How can I know someone?  The answer is simple: by spending time with him or her; by involving this friend in all aspects of my life. I know God in the same way.   I can hear of someone's adventures with this special person, but it is all second-hand-  all the information I have about a special friend comes from sources outside of me. In the same way, another believer's testimony of Jesus working in her life, her Bible study, or worship, can never take the place of my own. I would never try to live vicariously through another's relationship in the natural. So why do I do that in the spiritual? Why do I think hearing the preacher, letting the worship team sing, or reading someone's else inductive Bible study will take the place of my own intimate seeking of Christ?

Would we marry someone we did not know intimately, first-hand? Would seeing a picture, hearing the beloved's voice on CD or DVD, or only experiencing him/her through a social-network suffice? Really?   Having just a social-network relationship can only be superficial at best: how many intimate and personal things do we place on such sites? In the same way, coming to church and experiencing Christ only in the context of a crowd can be shallow.  I need one-on-one time with my Beloved. I need to look in His eyes to really know Him and see myself reflected back in truth.

We all know those folks who feel love is limited to one's birthday and Valentines- showy and somehow just a bit fake because it lacks real substance. Yet, am I like the lover who pours out affection on my Beloved only on Easter and Christmas?   Real love is first sacrificial, patient, kind, gentle, full of good fruit, does not boast, keeps no record of wrongs, not easily offended- that stuff  (I Corinthians 13).

My step-father has a saying, "Let your walk catch up with your talk."   There is a place for prophecy, but let's not forget the present reality. Yes, "He who began a good work in [me] will carry it on the completion until the day of Christ Jesus" (Phil.1:6). Yet, I must address the reality of my present relationship with Christ and move toward where Jesus wants me to be. Sometimes, we go stuck on a prophecy and forget the in-between- the literal working out of our salvation (Philippians 2:12-16).

How serious am I?  Have I left my first love? I am lukewarm only fit to be spit out of  Jesus' mouth (Revelations 3:15-16). I need to focus on adoration and not only service. That's the rub. The Martha syndrome- balancing Mary and Martha takes work. So before I get up to wipe noses or clean feet, to feed the hungry, I find the empty chair and sit with my Beloved.


Signing off,
M.J.

The Kiss

The Kiss

The kiss was loaded

Filled with as much passion

As poison

Toxic and breathtaking

Cyanide to the soul

 

But isn’t that the beauty of serpents?

 Alluring us from our promised fidelity

Convincing us to leave

The only home we’ve known.

Promising Paradise

Delivering Nothing

But Paradise Lost

 

 Predictable, really

 When I stopped to look back

At my former home                 

Only its reflection mirrored

In the glint of angelic blades

remained

 

O’ Prodigal me

I took for a Paramour

a Serpent

 

Bruised and bloodied

By the Kiss that promised so much

But only left vapors  of

The  retreating Presence

Of the  Ru’ach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit)

The Kiss

Paltry and anemic now

In the light of  the loss

Of completeness - of Shalom

For a few seconds of

pleasure beneath a broad-leaf

tree

True Satisfaction

When my soul seems to be eating itself

Consuming its very marrow and fat

I look up and view Your sweet face

 

Cleft in twain, bloody and bruised

My heart lies at your feet

You put it together, again

Holding it,

Pumping Your own lifeblood into its valves

You offer my soul, the Peace of

Your Presence

You satisfy my hunger

With good things

So that my youth is renewed

Like the eagle’s

 

Whether feast or famine,

You remain present

Offering milk and wine

Without price

Your body the very

Bread of life

 

The gnawing on brittle bones

Trying to suck substance

From what will never

Satisfy 

I leave it behind,

And run hard after

You

Your Love Never Fails -Chris Quilala / Jesus Culture

Day 5- The White House

Is this white house a metaphor for my love, stained and empty? There are no occupants- just a futile testimony of what could have been.  When I first walked this hill, I thought nothing of what God could do, but what I would lose. When God brought two friends to visit me, they talked about accountability: accountability for my emotions and my promise to be faithful.  Negative emotions assailed me; how could I be free of frustration, disappointment, and sadness?  How can I sit in this empty house filled with just me? If I can't keep covenant with friends, family, how can God trust me with even a greater gift? If I can't be trustworthy, I may just sit alone for quite some time until I learn the lesson.

Like the abandoned building, empty without residents, is any relationship without love. People often love to quote Ruth's words to Naomi, but covenant-loyalty is hard. For better or worse, in sickness and health, till death do us part. What is covenant loyalty? When people get married, they expect sunrises and blue skies, not the sun beating down on their heads. The dusty roads dirty our feet- our sweat-stained garments testament to our suffering. Ruth, gathered all her courage, and headed down the hilly road to Bethlehem. Even when Naomi threw her faith aside,  Ruth remained faithful.

Covenant can only be made through sacrifice.  In the Old Testament, the breaking of a covenant was death. When people 'cut covenant,' they literally walked between the slain bodies of the sacrifice, symbolically declaring may my life be as these, if I break my covenant. In Genesis 15:9, God instructs Abraham to, "Take me an heifer of three years old, and a she goat of three years old, and a ram of three years old, and a turtledove, and a young pigeon."When he brought the animals, God instructed him to cut them in two in the middle except the birds." Because the promise was so great for Abraham and his descendants, God walked between the sacrifice and 'cut covenant' by Himself. In Jeremiah 34:17, the Lord declares that, "Ye have not hearkened unto me, in proclaiming liberty, everyone to his brother, and every man to his neighbor: behold, I proclaim a liberty for you, saith the LORD[;] I will give the men that have transgressed my covenant, which have not performed the words of the covenant which they had made before me, when they cut the calf in twain, and passed between the parts thereof, and walked out that covenant." God takes covenant seriously; even the New Testament (Matt. 5:37; James 5:12) deals with vows; we are instructed to let our 'yes' by 'yes' and our 'no' be 'no'- that anything else is sin. We are instructed not make vows rashly.  Something to chew on.

Ruth's covenant was not spoken lightly, with little regard for her promise. I wonder when we promise to love, honor, and obey God just how serious we actually are? Do we consider our vows life-long covenants to our families? Thankfully, Ruth did.  As a result of her covenant obedience, from her womb came the ancestors of Y'shua.

Signing off,
M.J.

Day 4- "The Ruth Factor"

Faithful in the quiet and the small, the very things we continue to pour out, while we wait

It often takes what we must desperately need ourselves to help someone else. The patience, kindness, and forgiveness, we want, is what God asks us to give to others. Just like Ruth did for Naomi, we pour our spiritual grain into another's lap. This kind of spiritual supply comes from being in Jesus’ presence, meditation and contemplation of the Word, and intercession. Minter notes, “ I’ve also decided that blessing so big we can hardly carry them get stored up for us there –often so we can carry them to the bitter, empty, and hungry” (Minter 111).

God sometimes asks us to spread our wings over someone. So many times we act like the next-of-kin who refuses to redeem Ruth or Orpah who returned to Moab. We don’t want to lose our inheritance on someone else. We have own needs to be met.   To rise up an heir for someone else like Boaz did for Naomi’s dead son is extraordinary self-less and Christ-like. I make a transaction. I exchange my rights and freedom to redeem another from hell.

In the end, God gives Ruth what she walked away from-- a home, a mate, and child, and in the process, she blesses Naomi. Ruth is accepted as a Jew and becomes an ancestor in the lineage of Jesus.  Her perseverance and integrity led to greater blessings and unleashed new seasons of harvest in her life. Naomi looked at her lack and saw that she had nothing to offer Ruth. God saw past that to the truth and the plan that He had to redeem both of them. God took Ruth from the fields to become the wife of the owner of the fields. From less than a servant, she became the mistress of the household. Do you feel like an outsider, but God is asking you to be a bridge-maker? It is hard I know. Imagine being single, African-American, and Christian, working with Hasidic Jews. I did that for four years.  Can we hold out long enough to see God’s promises fulfilled?

Signing off,

M.J.